umm this is my second entry , but its going to be more like to release myself from idk what but its making me feel pretty down this days -w- and im actually kinda scared of growing older -w- now almost always im in a very happy mood i wonder how would it be if time would simple freeze, and for some reason even tho my life has been, or saying the truth i've made my life a bit lonely , these days im really feeling that im surrounding myself with emptyness , sometimes this idea of not wanting to think anymore strikes my mind, i mean how would it be to be happy and not having to worry for nothing, not even for myself, and well of course there'